Photo Credit: Adriana Garcia
Writing Credit: Adriana Garcia
‘You remind me of the sunshine.’
How could I be so foolish as to believe you?
But your eyes dilated every time they met mine,
And you couldn’t let go of me when you saw me.
I was too naive.
I was too in on it to be cautious.
I let my guard down as soon as my eyes met yours for the first time.
I let you in.
I offered you the heart I had just fixed,
It was our promise to keep,
And you broke it, you broke me.
I am young, yet I feel like I have lived a thousand lives.
Your name still startles me,
And I wish I could erase you from my memory,
Yet my brain refuses,
Because it loves to replay what we had,
And what we did.
I blame myself
Because I did not know how to treat you.
I am learning to love again.
I am trying to love the way I loved you.
But did I even love you?
It has been months
Since I last heard your voice,
Since my lips last caressed yours,
Since I touched you for the last time.
And I cannot seem to get you off my mind.
You moved on.
You give all of that to someone new.
You forgot me.
My name, my touch,
And I am learning to accept that you are no longer mine.
I am still confused.
I am looking for the reason why you left,
And for the reason why I cannot forget.
Every day gets harder,
I feel like I cannot love anymore.
But, did I even love you?